Once again, you are going to have the chance to peek inside my head. It can be scary, so enter at your own risk. Now is your last chance to turn the other direction! Okay, here we go. You are now entering “Molli World.” It’s one of my favorite places to be……most of the time.
In July, I will have been a homeowner for 2 years. Home maintenance and home improvement is still an, “I don’t have a clue what I’m doing.” I’ve learned several things along the way, like; making sure all doors are shut and locked so the wind doesn’t blow the door open when it’s 20 degrees outside and the house is 50 degrees when you get up in the morning! Or, when the power goes off, comes back on hours later, I need to reset the timer on the water softener and reset the well pump to have water again! Or, make sure the correct circuit breaker is off when you put in a new light fixture. (Yeah, that felt good!) And these are just a few of my home “improvement” stories!
We live on a lake. This is our first time living on a lake. We have a dock and a small beach area. The beach area makes it nice to get in and out of the kayaks and john boat. The railroad ties around the perimeter needed to be replaced and sand added to the beach. Again, I don’t know what I’m doing! I asked a few people, got some ideas and came up with a plan. (You’re already laughing. It’s ok!) One of the people I talked with volunteered to help remove the old railroad ties and place the new ones in. Yes, please! That part went rather smoothly. Well, as smoothly as it could with teenagers helping! (I love them, I really do!) I had 7 tons of sand added to our beach. Sounds like a lot, it is. I was feeling pretty good and excited about our “new” beach. Until it started raining! The main point in me redoing the beach area and adding some top soil to the low parts in the yard was to move the flow of the drainage of the yard away from the beach. There is a side of the beach that always washes out when we got a lot of rain. Well, we got a lot of rain. We hadn’t yet added the top soil to the low area in the yard. So, you guessed it, the one side of the beach washed out in the lake! When the rained stopped, I had a feeling that it happened. As I walked out to go check, my stomach wanted to revolt each step of the way. As I confirmed, that yes, park of the new sand I had just added in, is now out in the lake, I wanted to throw up right then and there. My pride took a hit and I didn’t want to admit to anyone what had happened. No, the rain was not my fault and it could have happened to anyone, but it happened to me. I was furious and screaming at myself in Molli World (not a great place to be at that moment!) A couple days later, I swallowed my pride and told someone what had happened and honestly looked at him and said, “I don’t know what to do!” Without missing a beat, without a, “Duh…,” he went straight to, “Oh, well, this is what we can do!” As I stood there and listened as he explained what we can do and that he will help and that he has what I need, I was melting on the inside as I was thanking Jesus.
Everything is a work in progress.
Luke 14:28 says, ” But don’t begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it?” I thought I did. I thought I got the information that I needed and was ready to start and complete the project. I thought I was ready.
John 16:33 says, “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrow. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” Things aren’t always going to go as planned. Either the plan doesn’t go as planned or the plan is changed completely. But did you catch it. He said, I’ve told you this so that you have peace in me. No matter what changed, what happened or didn’t happen, we can have peace in Him. AND, He’s got this. He has overcome anything and everything we can possibly think of or live through. If it’s not going to overtake Him, it’s not going to overtake me. He lives in us, we have His peace and His power to not be overtaken.
So, take that, washed out beach! It hasn’t stopped raining long enough to try again with our new and improved plan. When it does stop (and I stop avoiding looking at the continued damage!), we will try again. We will take another go at it.
Some of the many things I struggle with is self-perfectionism, personal expectations, failure. Once I realize those things are bringing me down and I need to get out of my own head, yes, leave Molli World, and enter God’s world, God’s head. It’s a much better place.
One of my many life lessons is that nothing goes as planned and I really don’t have control over anything. Yet the beauty of it all is God is perfect and God’s got it under control. With each mis-step or mishap, He is there to catch me, stand me back up and point me in the right direction. He gives me the balance to step over or around and shows me a new solution to try. No matter the stumble, He is there to offer grace and the Light to guide me. Even when it’s the solution to a washed out beach.
I am so thankful for the people God has put in my life, who have crossed my path. He continues to provide is small and big ways. Thank you Jesus, for your strong arms to catch me and people you place in my life to help guide me. I am forever grateful.
As for the beach, it will get done, when it gets done. All will be ok. Even if I have to replace the sand I just put in! I am able to add additional support that will help decrease the amount of water drainage through my beach. Silver lining. It will be ok!
Hope you enjoyed your time in “Molli World.” Please keep your hands and feet in until we come to a complete stop! Until next time!
Thanks for sharing a moment with me. We are in this together in Him.